Women

Well, let's discuss one of my favorite topics... I love to both ogle and to vent about. Women piss me off. Oh yeah, before we even start... I have very low self esteem right now, and none of the "high" comments are just providing information, not my tooting my own horn. There is no doubt that I have been screwed around in some of my relationships, but that is not the point of this post, because I also absolutely love a lot of girls. As a guy, it seems to be somewhat strange for me to have such a large group of female friends. I know for a fact that I have a much larger female contingent than male in my life. I will also add this comment that almost all of my female friends have passed on that they think I'm very attractive, as well as an extremely kind and very nice person. Lately this has brought a couple of very interesting issues to the forefront of my thought.

When I head out for a night with the guys, I am usually the only single one. Most of my friends are in long term, very committed relationships and I can see most of them being wed in the next year. This doesn't cause a problem for me at all, but strangely enough, there is a problem caused by my single adventures. I have lately run into the problem that my constant attention from females has caused a lot of jealousy in the past, and surprisingly this continues. A few weeks back, we entered a bar, and almost immediately past the bouncer A girl grabbed me and started chatting away with me. I found out later from my cousin's girlfriend, that he turned around and cursed me because this always happens to me. He thinks I get way too much attention. He did this scene right to his girlfriend and he explained his jealousy over this event which created a small disagreement on her part, with her stating that he should not be bothered by these things that happen to me. I'm really surprised that there is jealousy based on this after so many years. We're not competing, as there is nothing to compete about since they are all very happy with their significant others, and I'm very happy they have all found someone special. So, my hunt continues, and yet still causes problems with the guys. It's a shame, and one of the reasons that I don't call them as much anymore. Although it is easier to work with the girls if you're there with a group of guys. However, jealousy over my life is just not cool. My life is nothing more than a chaotic growth from the large deep hole that I feel into a couple months back... Absolutely nothing to be jealous of, and yet I know it exists.

Now onto the women. Making light of the situation, a lot of people believe I have a harem of women... these women are all platonic friends, but none the less, I do have a large group of girls that I am always hanging out with. I think most people think that I'm dating that person that I head out with, because they are naturally all quite attractive girls. Although this should be the case, I do remain single, and fortunately for me, a lot of the girls just laugh about my wondering eye when girls pass by, and just get a little nervous when my head is not paying attention to the driving aspect of things. Oh, how much I enjoy checking out women. And apparently meeting them is pretty easy for me when I decide to. However, this brings us to this problem. Not all of my female friends act this way, but there is a large group on the constant lookout for a suitable Kelly mate. I like this idea a lot. What I have noticed is that the expectations they have laid out indicate that only a very small fraction of females actually reach a level of someone how I should be dating. An example would be a pair of them scoping out the whole entire bar, and coming back with 2 prospects that they believed were suitable for me... The rest were beneath me, and didn't deserve to be considered as a girl for me. I thought there were some cute girls there, but apparently I have low standards or something, as the girls didn't agree with me. Now it's strange because I know how girls are towards other girls, so apparently the next girl that I start dating is going to have to able to hold her own with both the guys and their girlfriends, as well as my harem.

So... we'll see their response when I get the phone numbers of all 3 hot nursing assistants at my Doctor's office, and the number of the sweetheart (with the nice booty) that manages the alcohol sale at Volleyball. Tomorrow's posts will highlight my successes and failures. I will be happy with 1 nurse assistant and 1 Volleyball chick to add to the harem. So, that's my goal.

Time to sleep tight... The pills are taking effect.