Dreams

I'm plagued by nightmares most of the time that I'm actually asleep. Most revolve around my death, someone else's death, or someone/something chasing me. Not very happy stuff. Last night was different.

I had a dream about an ex-girlfriend. I basically call her the ex, because we dated for 3 years which is the longest relationship I've ever had, and we had talked about marriage quite a bit. That one ended rather abruptly one night when I called her to see if she wanted to come out for wings with me and some friends. 3 hours later, I was single, and it all happened over the phone.

I did not have any contact with her again until Dec 18th of last year. I ran into her last year at a gas station, and had a brief conversation with her before taking off pretty quickly. It caused me some issues, and I couldn't get her out of my head for a couple of days. But, things were fine for me.

So, out of the blue, she's in my dream. Strangely enough, I can't really remember all of the dream, but I remember 1 part very clearly. I know that I was seeing/dating a different girl. I have an idea who this person is, but it's really not important. What I do remember is running into my ex and having a converstation with her. It was a nice conversation, and as I was leaving she stopped me and asked if she could give me a call, because she missed me. I looked at her and remember telling her that I couldn't do that because of the way things ended originally, and that I was better off without her. I can remember walking away smiling... not a smile of "I hope I hurt her", but one of satisfaction like I faced temptation and walked away triumphant. When I woke up after this, I actually felt really good.

I have a few ideas on the meaning behind this dream, but won't post them just yet. I'm still thinking about it.